Sigh seriously I really abhor this sem for alot of various reason initially i thought i would be happy if i had my friend joining/coming over to psychology but i was wrong it doesn make me any happier instead i think its really feel with very much agony and pain. I reckon it wouldn be that bad if i were to got the timetable that i want(screw the bloody NP >.<)  I think i really make a huge mistake by choosing the psychology option.

I dont know whether am i doing the right thing by saying it here or not but i been procrastinating for quite sometime on whether to blog all my thoughts here and to keep it private, to keep mum abt it and kept it in my heart or just blog it away. I decided to blog it away coz im very tired really really tired to kept it in my heart and juz BS-ing you in sch anyway i wouldn even be bloggin it here if i were meant to kept it a secret frm u. I wont reveal who are "u" that i meant to i will juz let u feel it for urself. Your free to hate me for this but im sorry i really had to pour this out. Frankly i really really detest for history to repeat by itself and i thought i no longer had to experience this kind of things again at my adulthood age and that i would be able to avoid it just for the last sem before grad but really i cant seem to take it any more, i would rather trash it out here than to talk to u personally coz i knw i wouldn be able to voice out everything when doin a face-to-face confrontation with you. Im pretty sure you knw what im meant of.

I dunno whether its becoz of my selfishness, jealousy or pretty much hate to be left out but yea if i was to said none of the above i knw i wld be deluding myself coz those traits do have alittle part on our seemingly border line. Honestly i knew this wld happen right before the sem start eversince i knew abt ur decision to join psychology but i told myself to trust in u more when pple are telling me that "what if she is more closer to mk and turtle"? but i guess its pretty much backfire. Which is partly the reason why im trying hard to avoid this kind of stuff frm happening by not wanting to be in the same class as them during the tt selection and when i heard that ur the last one frm us 3 to switch to 61 class during the class selection process i alrdy got that tingly feeling that u dun wish to be apart frm them. Its not that i hate them or anything in the first plc i nvr hate them but when i see how they seem to enjoy communicating with you i seem to be really out of place and akward and lonely as tho im invisible there i wouldn mind much if i had kas i guess..I dun even get it why do the both of them always seem to confide in you as tho they are always dependant on you is it becoz ur too friendly or was it becoz ur quite kpo-ing in their welfare? Its funny now how i think that the person who actually used to dislike them very much and even boycotting them during the HR tt selection ended up being a gd frend with them than me and yt do not as a form of jealousy but just a thought boy is thats the magic of being too amiable or being two-face personality? I mean didn u said ur the chess set type..like means like dont like mean dont like i dun even get it why do u said one bad thing abt them in one place and then bothered everything and anything abt them in another and mind im not the only person who said this.

To tell u the truth abt the qns that make me and turtle akward movement now. Guilty as charge it was not becoz of yt blurted that confession out to him i can always pretended not to knw anything abt it and just treat it as usual but its becoz of ur fondness towards him that make me withdraw coz like i said i dun wish to be embroil in this kind of triangle stuff but seriously i really dun care abt him anymore in fact i dun even want and wish to associated anything to him now so can i ask pls to stop using me as the platform as the conversation starter for the both of u im not shg and he is not my boss and ur not my mgr lets put a stop to all this childish game ok? Lets just treat and regard one another as normal friend and if he ever wish to knw any stuff related to me pls convey to him to ask me personally himself i do not wish for you to become the middlewoman no more let just treat one another as classmate and friends before grad and thats goes to you too eventho we are not close now thats all im asking for. And of coz i wld actually appreciate it very much if we cld not always join them for lunch.

Sigh..i really really wish for this last sem to end faster its literally killing me!

Venting out all my indignant!

Ok Im damn super piss and annoyed with the npal rite now why is that so?

1)     They screw up my timetable. The timetable of class 1 that I wanted to be in, ended up getting the timetable that me and my friend initially first select which is class 2 which mean they swap our timetable timing class! Wth man wasting my effort to convince my friends to switch to class 1!! mgr zw if u see my blog yes I was half lying when I said that I wanted class 1 coz of the timing, the other half of the reason is that I really wants to avoid no.2 coz I really don’t feel like associating with him and his gang whatsoever anymore. And now whats funnier is that the person that I wanted to avoid ended up having the same class as me! What is all this man! Then whats the point of us choosing our timetable if they are going to haywire our timetable like this no wonder there’s a phrase “the more u try to avoid the person the more you will get to see them” its true afterall!

2)     And as if that is not enough to make me feel infuriated add on with the IS choices now. I wants PC TECH for my IS module!! But why is that I cant get in to my choice! That was supposedly my top choices when we are required to send in our top IS module back then but why is the person that isn’t keen on taking that module ended up getting it and hell ya thanks to her gang -.- I wouldn’t care less if they were taking other module but they are taking up my choices! No wonder the vacancies were finish like a hot cake when I select it during my time enrolment at 2pm. And guess what again I couldn’t get in to PC TECH when theres a chance for me to swap during the swapping/changing class time slot when kas told me there is 2 vacancies open for pc tech but each time I tried to change or swap it theres an error message encountered that said “there is a schedule conflict” which im unclear of why..NOW why didn anyone give any feedback to NP that they shld be more detail in their error msg! or at least keep the system easy for us to change our classes easily! There goes my chances when I realize the correct way to swap the classes =( I really wonder where the heck in the world were they called the top poly in s,pore then?  

And now im in human communication, ok frankly human comm wasn’t that bad as their project is a video project I wanted to take that or appreciating artwork initially but there is still an urge for me to take pc tech in my mind as I like IT stuff and besides I feel guilty sometimes whenever I gave an unprofessional advice to mgr zw and my friend minghui each time they turn to me for help in IT related problem, regarding me as an  IT consultant lol -.- Yes I must admit tho that no.1 do play a 30% part in making me more urging to have pc tech as my IS module but the remaining 70% more of it would be gaining knowledge in IT stuff so that I could understand IT related better and also it could serve to help me whenever there is a problem with my pc at home, I always feel so frustrated whenever my home pc is giving me problem but..sigh…its not fated i guess..Now why must no.1 kept having the same mind/wants as me but ended up im the one who couldn’t get into the course or module whilst he the one who always seem to get it. Last time it was marcom and now its pc tech..is he a bane in my life or was it that we has the same telepathy but the deal is we had to cross fate everytime?

To sum if off I had enough of all this crappy NP npal system they had the worst and cork up system ever!

Finally its over!

Yesh like my title say it all finally this torturous sem is over! I felt as tho im back to my hometown after being in a foreign land for so long phew! Today i juz ended my BMM exam and god i think im so gonna fail it the paper was super suck like shit everything that i studied didn come out and worse thing was that i was studying hard on the Boston Matrix but it came out Anson Matrix instead damn sia! This sem BMM paper is much much more tougher than the previous sem and year die i had the feeling i will fail this exam even my sis feel that she too gonna fail :( Im hoping that i would not fail this module coz i definitely would not want to repeat this module again next sem sigh :(

But amidst that im so thankful to amylia sis for inviting me to went back to ITE Clementi today to meet Mr George its really a good day to went back on my last day of this torturous sem in NP..when i step into ITE CT i feel so much like goin back home, immediately all the memories of my youth spending in ITE CT came gushing back sigh those were definitely the days! Cant wait for the next KN gathering :)

Oh ya btw i take out the chatbox as i found it unnecessarily to put my chat box anymore since there's not a lot of pple who actually visit my blog so yea better to take it out rather than to leave it stagnant there haha

Ok gtg now till then..

Finally all project are clear!!!

Yesh finally my hectic days and wasting of time and bus fare are finally over there will be no more of goin to and fro to sch, wasting time in sch doin project till late wee hour and most importantly no more nonsense from my project mate!! Woot!! I finally break free from them yeah!

Okie thurs was actually my big day which is my Integrated Presentation day altho its sad to say that my grp got a rather bad result grade from IP(Sigh i can so foresee that i will got C for my Marcomm module -.-) but there's another side of me heaving a sigh of relief that there is no more of chiong-ing for project with them and most importantly no more had to take in all the crap and nonsense from them..those hell-ing and sorrowful moment of doing project with them are finally over! Phew! Anyway here's some photos and vids that we took ;) 
 

The class photo after Integrated Presentation

Its quite far as we are using the camera timer to took the photos haha..

Remember that i state in my earlier post something abt my shooting for the tv ads?Here's an exclusive sneak preview of the tv ads for our M1 Integrated Project..why did i say exclusive coz well only me and zw owns it as i did not distribute it to my other team mates as i finish editing the vid the day on the presentation day so yea i did not sleep at all which is why i actually snooze off when the last grp was presenting haha..

Here's presenting you our 30s M1 Youth Plan tv ads from my grp ;)

Seem more like an MV due to its mushiness storyline isnt it i tell you it wasn easy to shoot in this ads coz our storyboard was abt youth couple and initially i didn even wants to act at all as im way past the youth age ardy beside i also wont want to label as a cradle robber from my frends as i need to act with a much younger guy than me -.- but my grp mates insist that i act coz there is none of them wanted to act hence i agreed to it for the sake of the project and apparently im being  the victim in here..i received alot of emotional depression feeling before and after shooting this ads which i dont even wish to mention it out >.<

During those project moments I realize i really miss my own age grp or rather should i say my ITE peeps ALOT! coz only with them i can feel that im able to potray my real self and i feel happy with them as well i guess its becoz of there is no age gap among us unlike when your doing with a "kids"..

Sigh project clearance now left with exams gasp! but lucky only need to take 2 module that is Sales Management and Brand Marketing Management and the exam date is at the end of aug so more times for me to chiong haha..

K gtg now i need my daily doses of sechskies vid after so long unable to watch their vids due to project ;)..Till then

Counting down to my BIG day!!

Very tired these few days goin to and fro to sch and ytd shoot for the ads till late nite and worse realize that we still haven shot 1 scene yet -.-

Im seriously counting down to my BIG day in 2 days time before i could finally been declare that all projects are clear!!! Sigh will be super hectic these 2 days due to the IP that i didn even have any time to watch any sechskie vid or my read my email..nvr md im anticipating for these thurs after 1.30 ahaha..gah damn it why must the IP be so darn early in the morning im hoping that i wont be late for the big day at least ;)

K cant talk much gtg do my projects stuff now >.<